Happy Birthday Hanim!

Dear Hanim,

Come 13th July will marks your 13th birthday. As your mother, Ibu wish all the best for you. With that I want to share this song with you...

My Wish
by Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice,
and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything,
more than anything,
My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big,
your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back,
but you never forget,
all the ones who love you,
in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive,
and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take
But more than anything,
Yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big,
your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you may all your dreams stay big...

Happy Birthday my baby...
Love,
Ibu.

Birthday Emak

Tomorrow is Emak 63rd birthday. This mark her birthday without Bapak by her side. Mesti sedih sangat. They were always together for the last 44 years...going thru all the ups and downs. There's so many thing that I want to give her. I wish I can take back all the things that happened in her life. I wish I can roll back the clock.... but then it is only wishful thinking!

Dear Emak,
Ampunkanlah dosa-dosa anak mu ini. Halalkanlah makan dan minum selama ini. Doakanlah kesejahteraan anak2 mu serta cucu2mu. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah usia Emak dan semuga kami dapat bersama-sama menjadi tetamuMu secepat mungkin. AMin.



Ibu
Artist: P. Ramlee

Ibu,ibu
Engkaulah ratu hatiku
Bila ku berduka
Engkau hiburkan selalu
Ibu , ibu
Engkaulah ratu hatiku
Tempat menyatakan kasih
Wahai ibu
Betapa tidak hanya engkaulah
Yang menyniari hidupku
Sepanjang masa engkau berkorban
Tidak putusnya bagai air lalu
Ibu, ibu
Engkaulah ratu hatiku
Tempatku menyerahkan kasih
Wahai ibu...

Dear Emak,
I love you always.
11/7/2009... blogging from Jalan Kebun... Thanks JJ for the broadband.

Thinking of You

Lately I have been thinking of someone. This person used to be a very important person in my life especially when I was living in the States. We knew each other when we were doing our English preparation classes in SMS Selangor some 20++ years. He (ooops.. yes its a HE) was (and still is, I hope) my best pal. Our friendship is so platonic and crazy. I argued a lot with him, which made me feel very much at ease with him. I knew almost all of his love relationship, and he will get the reviews of my latest crush! I will not reveal his name considering all the circurmstances ( he probably dah beranak-pinak and happily married).
Listening to Katy Perry's Thinking of You really makes me think of you.

Thinking Of You
[ Katy Perry Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What *you* would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get betterOnce I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...


What if I can turn back the clock? Back to 20 years ago. My life will definitely not be the same.
I wish that I can talk to him now, just to say hi! There are many things left unspoken....

But is it a good move?

Anyhow, I miss you, my friend. May Allah bless you with all the happiness that you desired. Hopefully you are one of the best husband and father to all your kids...

Breakfast Menu

Assalamualaikum,

This year marks my attempt to make you guys to start your day with home-cooked breakfast i.e. bawa bekal to school. We started off with nuggets but eventually we settled for sandwich--> pocket sandwich, grilled cheese sandwich, left-overs chicken & lamb sandwich etc.

Menu 1: Pocket Egg sandwich

What do you need:

2 eggs

1/2 cup of Milk (if available)
1 dallop of chilli sauce

1 tspn butter

dash of black pepper

Cheddar cheese slices

Bread

How do yo do it:

A. Make your scrambled eggs

1. Beat eggs and the chilli sauce till combine. Add the black pepper

2. Heat butter. Pour in the eggs combi.

3. Let it cuddle for a sec, then scramble it.

4. It's done when the eggs are soft and sticky.

B. Assemble in sandwich maker

5. Take a slice of bread and spread the egg on it.
6. Put the bread-with-egg-on-it on the sandwich-maker, then place a slice of cheese.

7. Get a new slice of bread, put it on the chesse.

8. Make another set, then start the sandwich maker.

Your sandwich will be ready in 4~5 min.

Menu 2: Grilled Cheese Sandwich

What do you need:

Same as Menu 1

How do you do it:

A. Make your french toast

1. Combine egg, milk, salt, pepper & chilli sauce.

2. Dip bread in egg mix.

3. Put it on hot buttered pan & let it cook on both side.

4. Repeat for another piece of bread.

B. Making the grilled cheese sandwich

5. Take a piece of the french toast.

6. Put a piece of cheese on top of it.

7. Then layered another french toast.

8. Tekan sikit the layered toast till you can see that both of the toast are sticking together by the melting cheese.

9. Your sandwich is ready.

You can also have your leftovers chicken, lamb as the fillings for the sandwich.

I did prepared chicken slices that I bought from the supermarket. It just need to be cooked and flavored with pepper and mustard. I also add a dash of tabasco sauce and herbs like coriender leaves or rosemary. It's a little bit different from the tuna sardines that we also prepared.

We also have chicken slices on mini bun instead of the usual rectangular bread.

I'll update more of our recipes later.

TTFN.

Hari Bapa 2009--> remembering Bapak pt 1

Assalamualaikum,

Sedih sungguh hari bapa tahun ini. Selalunya ibu akan awal-awal pagi telefon Wan. Ucapkan terima kasih atas segala kasih-sayang yang selama ini Wan curahkan pada kita semua. Tetapi tahun ini merupakan tahun pertama kita sambut hari bapa tanpa Wan. Terasa benar kehilangan Wan dalam hidup ibu. Tiada lagi panggilan telefon pada waktu pagi terutama kejutan untuk solat subuh pada hari minggu. Semuga ruhnya ditempatkan bersama-sama dengan para mujahidin, Ameen...

Let me tell you more of my father, but let it be in English..

Bapak was born in Alor Setar Kedah on 9/10/1936 to Shafie bin Saad and Andam binti Ahmad. He was the eldest of 9 siblings. He became a teacher when he was 13 (I was told that it was a norm for boys his age to work at that time). I was also told that Bapak sat for his SPM and STPM during his 'sekolah malam' and 'gaya pos'. He was offered to further studies in University Gajah Mada way back in the '60s, but he declined. Probably because of the young children and family that he need to leave behind. But that did not stop him from excelling in his career. He was promoted to become a headmaster when he was not even in his mid-30's. He was very much passionate in Malay Literature and politics. As far as I remembered, Bapak has always been somebody active in PAS Kedah. We had our fair share of in justice just because Bapak's involvement in PAS. Alhamdulillah, rezeki kita di tangan Allah.

Bapak loved to read. He will read from his start of the day (in the toilet) till he sleeping time. I discovered books all around us when we are still small. Going to the book store with Bapak when we are growing up was one of the best moment of my life (dia ada kerja kat Pej Pelajaran di Tingkat 2, so he will leave me at the bookstore at the Ground floor. Masa tu tak ada kes-kes anak2 kena culik, alhamdulillah. Dia pernah tinggalkan kami sebab dia terlupa!)

Another habit that Bapak has (until his passed away) is writing his journal. I dare not read his journals since I could not bear to read what he wrote about his feelings towards me especially related to my difficult years and towards the latter stage.( ni nak tulis blog everyday pun tak boleh...)

Did I mentioned that he wrote to me in Jawi when I was in the States? Yes... everyweek I'll received an aerogram from Malaysia from Bapak on news related to everything from Malaysia in Jawi. How I miss his surat....

He liked my cookings especially the Asam Pedas. For him, the best gulai ikan is from Mak, but I make a mean asam pedas. He will have seconds everytime I cooked asam pedas.

I hope I make him proud, regardless the pain that put him with my marital situation. It's not that I do not want to share the pain with him, it's just that I do not want to bother him with my issues especially bila dah besar2 ni. For him, I plainly forget about him. For me, I want to spare him from my issues. I am a little bit embarrased with all the hu-ha2. I know he loved me very much that he want to be involved in everything. I guess he really loved me very much.

I need to break from this entry... my tears are rolling now...

I'll put up the 2nd part of this topic....

TTFN.

Pening Kepala (or is it Pusing Kepala?)

My head is spinning again. Last 2 weeks, I was having the same issue! According to the Dr., my blood pressure was on the lower side. He prescribed Ginko and Visograin for the dizziness & mild migrain attack. Argh... since last night my head is throbbing like someone is knocking on it! I need to also get my eyes check... old age is catching up... real fast!.

Hope for Allah forgiveness for all the deeds....

P/S: the evaluation need to take a back seat today. Tak lalu nak tengok the table...

Bising dalam Mussolah!

I am so pissed of yesterday!!! Susah betul nak concentrate in my solat if there are a couple of people chit-chatting in the prayer room like they own the place! Hey kawan... this is a place wher you want to meet the ONe. You need all the composure to meet your Kekasih. This is the only place where you need all your concentration to meet the Creator! But what happen???? You guys were talking,giggling etc... if whispering tu, we know that you know this is the sacred place! but to talk like you are in the cafe (well a little lower than cafe...) Argh... and mostly are officers --> graduates (or at least someone that finished school!!!)

How to handle this kind of situation???